Well I have three weeks of school left, and you know what I get to do. Projects. No I don’t get to relax and ride out these last few weeks not caring or trying in any of my classes. I actually don’t know if that’s what other people get to do so I shouldn’t complain too much. But currently I am working on five projects to finish the school year. Yes, five. I am really hoping that my teachers don’t add any more surprise projects along the way either. So I have been stressing about how I will get all of this done, and I’ve started looking for a place to work over the summer and possibly carry into the school year next year. It’s not that job applications are hard, I just want some peace of mind knowing that I will get a job somewhere. I hope I haven’t waited too long because I know that other people will be applying for summer jobs too.
Is it time to panic yet?
In addition to a summer job, I should also start volunteering this summer to mark off hours for college. I want this summer to be fun and memorable before all of my friends part ways, but I’m wondering if I will have time to get everything I need to get done AND everything I want to do. It doesn’t seem like there will be enough time in those short two and a half months.
I’m slowly falling apart under the weight of all these projects…but have a nice day!
Recently I have been feeling more stressed out than usual. I don’t know if this has anything to do with the horrible month of March, but I am slowly falling apart under the amount of work and decisions I have to make for the future. I am going to start college next year so I have been receiving and awaiting acceptances and rejections from schools. As I have been getting acceptances I am realizing that I don’t know where I want to go to college. I haven’t been getting excited about the acceptances I receive because I am so worried that I didn’t apply to schools that I actually want to go to. I know I applied to schools that have my major but looking back, I should have put more consideration into where I applied. I envy the people who know where they want to go for college. I don’t want to regret the decision I make about where I go to college, what I choose to study, and whether or not I choose to run track in college. I’m second guessing every decision I have made about college and I feel so overwhelmed by the thought of leaving everything I know now to go somewhere and study something that I don’t even know I will like. I thought I knew what I wanted to study but now I’m wondering if its actually what I want to do, or if I just chose to do that because there was no better option. I also thought I knew that I wanted to run track in college, but sometimes I wonder if I was just put on that path and never had the sense to take myself off.
March is the WORST month for work. This seems to be the month that teachers have decided to pile on all of the work they didn’t manage to give us the previous semester. Dear teachers, what are we cramming for! Its the middle of the semester. I did not become Super Student who has the ability to complete all of my work, after having a long practice, and still get a good nights sleep. I am currently suffocating under the amount of work I have to do for and it doesn’t help that track season just started which means I have meets both during the week and on weekends. But the best part about all of this work is when teachers wonder why every student in class is either sleeping or looks like they should be. I can clue them in on what’s going on. In the past four days we haven’t gotten more than five hours of sleep a night. It is becoming slow torture to wake up every morning knowing that I have to go through the same routine and experience the same pain when I go home and realize that once again I will be staying up until 2 in the morning to complete whatever work it is from each class.
Hello everyone! Sorry for not posting for awhile. I spent my Christmas and New Years hanging out with family and friends, and not blogging. I unfortunately just finished my winter break for school, and when I went back to school it felt like I never left. This is the most frustrating feeling because I realize my winter break was filled with doing a lot of school work to remind me that, yes, I in fact have to endure another five and a half months of school.
My break wasn’t all bad though, I got to do some fun things too! I went on a church retreat, went dirt biking, caught up with a friend I hadn’t seen in awhile, and went to a lot of track related things. Oh, and I got sick. Over Christmas. It wasn’t horrible, but the last few symptoms lingered for a week after I got the cold/flu thing. I lost my voice, which has never happened to me before so that was an interesting experience by itself. My friends made fun of me and whenever I got excited or angry my voice either went really high or really low. And my yelling turned into some kind of awkward screeching and it wasn’t very loud.