Well I have three weeks of school left, and you know what I get to do. Projects. No I don’t get to relax and ride out these last few weeks not caring or trying in any of my classes. I actually don’t know if that’s what other people get to do so I shouldn’t complain too much. But currently I am working on five projects to finish the school year. Yes, five. I am really hoping that my teachers don’t add any more surprise projects along the way either. So I have been stressing about how I will get all of this done, and I’ve started looking for a place to work over the summer and possibly carry into the school year next year. It’s not that job applications are hard, I just want some peace of mind knowing that I will get a job somewhere. I hope I haven’t waited too long because I know that other people will be applying for summer jobs too.
Is it time to panic yet?
In addition to a summer job, I should also start volunteering this summer to mark off hours for college. I want this summer to be fun and memorable before all of my friends part ways, but I’m wondering if I will have time to get everything I need to get done AND everything I want to do. It doesn’t seem like there will be enough time in those short two and a half months.
I’m slowly falling apart under the weight of all these projects…but have a nice day!
I have obsessions. Yeah. Everyone does. So here they are. First and foremost, I LOVE the show Avatar: The Last Airbender, and I was honestly so sad when it ended. And yes, for those of you who also watch it, I do watch Korra too. Both of the shows are amazing and I love them. There aren’t even words to describe the excitement I feel when I see them on TV. I could talk about Avatar all day; about the plot development, the character growth, the soundtrack, and how the animation changed over time. And I really like it when I meet someone who loves Avatar as much as me but knows more about it because then I get to learn more about the creators, the show, and Korra.
Yes the title is very vague, but I was watching this video of J.K. Rowling giving the commencement speech at Harvard from 2008. She had a really good message and shared knowledge with the graduates of Harvard. I have the video linked below its kind of long but feel free to check it out.
If you don’t watch the video there is one quote from it that I will leave you all with.
“It is impossible to live without failing something. Unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all. In which case you’ve failed by default.” –J.K. Rowling
This quote says a lot. You cannot be so afraid to make a mistake in life that you never live. Failing something is a part of life. When you fail, you’re supposed to learn from it; pick yourself off the ground, brush off the dirt, and keep going. It might sound a little harsh, but if people never failed there would be no incentive to try new things or work harder to achieve goals. Being afraid to fail is like being afraid to drink water. It’s inevitable. You will have to drink water to survive and you will fail at some point in your life at something.
I find it absolutely ridiculous when people refuse to try new things because they are afraid to be bad at it. So what? You might find out you’re really good at it, or if you’re not at least you tried and maybe it can be something you can work on. Living life without trying new things or making changes is a sad way to live. You will never grow as a person without gaining new experiences from trying new things. Sticking with what is familiar is like living in a bubble, you won’t ge tout much and it gets stuffy. Like your life will be if you stay in the bubble.
Okay that got off track. Enjoy the video and have a nice day!
I don’t feel like I have given enough credit to one of my teachers. I always seem to be complaining about how terrible homework is and how teachers don’t understand the meaning of a break or no sleep and all that. But in class we have been doing assignments that I haven’t even realized are useful and actually fun until now. I guess I didn’t even realize it was the work for the book we are reading…if that makes sense. Currently we are finishing up the book 1984 and we did two activities for this book that really stuck with me.
First we did this thing where we made groups of three and analyzed a section or paragraph of the book. Then each group would look for any interesting analytics or pieces within the paragraph that relate to the book as a whole or draw outside references that relate to the book. It was a fun and interactive way to get the whole class involved with the book, and it was kind of like AP test prep because it showed how much each group could analyze and talk about in one small paragraph. Which made me feel better knowing that there should be so much I will be able to write about on my three AP test essays
Recently I have been feeling more stressed out than usual. I don’t know if this has anything to do with the horrible month of March, but I am slowly falling apart under the amount of work and decisions I have to make for the future. I am going to start college next year so I have been receiving and awaiting acceptances and rejections from schools. As I have been getting acceptances I am realizing that I don’t know where I want to go to college. I haven’t been getting excited about the acceptances I receive because I am so worried that I didn’t apply to schools that I actually want to go to. I know I applied to schools that have my major but looking back, I should have put more consideration into where I applied. I envy the people who know where they want to go for college. I don’t want to regret the decision I make about where I go to college, what I choose to study, and whether or not I choose to run track in college. I’m second guessing every decision I have made about college and I feel so overwhelmed by the thought of leaving everything I know now to go somewhere and study something that I don’t even know I will like. I thought I knew what I wanted to study but now I’m wondering if its actually what I want to do, or if I just chose to do that because there was no better option. I also thought I knew that I wanted to run track in college, but sometimes I wonder if I was just put on that path and never had the sense to take myself off.
Today I went snorkeling at Corona del Mar to work on my Environmental Science project. It’s the same as my scuba project in case you read that post. I went with my friend Makenna, who I’m partnered with for the project, and our teacher. I wasn’t expecting to go today because we forgot to follow up with our teacher to verify going today, but I skipped practice and made it work. We borrowed equipment from the scuba instructor and borrowed some wetsuits at the last minute, went down to the beach, and prepared to snorkel out to the kelp beds to observe what we needed. We didn’t gather any data today, but we plan on doing that another time.
It was a lot more fun than I thought it would be. Getting in the water was probably the biggest struggle because we were trying to put our masks on while getting knocked over by waves, and the fins did not help with balancing. I’m sure we all looked really great flailing around to try to stay on our feet! It made me wish we could have class like that everyday. It was nice to be able to work hands on outside of the classroom. I also thought that I would get freaked out by the kelp, but I didn’t. Once I was surrounded by it, it felt more soft than anything. Plus I was wearing a wetsuit so I couldn’t really feel that much of it touching me. We observed the kelp to see what we could use to determine how healthy the kelp is. We decided that seeing if the kelp is bleached is a sign of unhealthy kelp and kelp with white specks (which are colonies of something that’s name slips my mind right now) is a sign of healthy kelp.
March is the WORST month for work. This seems to be the month that teachers have decided to pile on all of the work they didn’t manage to give us the previous semester. Dear teachers, what are we cramming for! Its the middle of the semester. I did not become Super Student who has the ability to complete all of my work, after having a long practice, and still get a good nights sleep. I am currently suffocating under the amount of work I have to do for and it doesn’t help that track season just started which means I have meets both during the week and on weekends. But the best part about all of this work is when teachers wonder why every student in class is either sleeping or looks like they should be. I can clue them in on what’s going on. In the past four days we haven’t gotten more than five hours of sleep a night. It is becoming slow torture to wake up every morning knowing that I have to go through the same routine and experience the same pain when I go home and realize that once again I will be staying up until 2 in the morning to complete whatever work it is from each class.